Tim's Story

We all want to believe we have it all together. Even when we are busy in the church, Satan never stops trying to steal and kill and destroy (John 10:10). The Apostle Peter warns us: Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. (1 Peter 5:8) 

As a young married couple, my wife and I were church attenders – serving here and there; but for the most part, just filling a pew on Sundays. The other 167 hours of the week, we lived in the world, chasing our dreams. We had no community, no accountability. Sure, we had friends, but no one we invited into the messy. In Psalm 56:1, David says: Be gracious to me, O God, for man tramples on me; all day long an attacker oppresses me. David had a king and an entire army looking to kill him. David was alert and of sober mind where I was not.

Satan used the American Dream to drive my wife and me in totally separate directions. At my lowest point, I called her and told her I wasn’t coming home. I wanted out! I was overwhelmed with life, and the only thing I knew to do was to walk away. That’s the easy thing -- walk away when things get hard, when things get messy. I’d seen my parents do it, and their parents before them. I felt I had no hope.

Then Jesus entered in! I was broken, lost, and afraid; and at that point, all I could do was cry out to the Lord! I read in Psalm 56:3 where David writes, When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I shall not be afraid. That was it! I had failed to put my trust in Him, to praise Him. Then my enemies will turn back in the day when I call: this I know, that God is for me. (v.9) What a Savior!

The Lord did such a work in both of us when we surrendered every aspect of our lives to Him. He moved us, placed in a great church with awesome couples who walked with us and discipled us. David concludes Psalm 56 by telling us, For you have delivered my soul from death, yes my feet from falling, that I may walk before God in the light of life. (Psalm 56:13)

That is my challenge for you: find your community -- a community of believers unafraid to ask the difficult questions and walk through the messiness, a community that points you to Jesus, our true hope.

By Tim Kitts

Tim is husband to Stephanie and dad to Emily, Olivia and Owen Kitts. He is the Executive Director of the Housing Authority of Danville and Stanford, and he and his family have been members of Immanuel since 2019.






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